I’m sick .

Been sick for almost a week. It’s not good. Fever , gastrointestinal. Weak. Today headache.

I am the one who takes care of everyone. There is no one in my house who knows how to take care of me.

Inside my balloon head my brain tries to think what I need to do to get better.

Thoughts come to me like snail mail. One day I realized I needed coffee to clear my head . Another day I had an sudden inspiration to drink bone broth for my painful stomach . Scrambled eggs and mashed potatoes filtered through the fog and they were a big help.

My weak body wants to lie down. My brain knows I need stuff . My emotions are dormant.

Who takes care of the caregiver?

I’ve done pretty good some days . I knew I needed certain things and I got them. God is helping me and I feel the prayers of friends .

I thought I was almost all better . Today I feel like I took a step back.

Communication is my bag, but it’s barely working. Yet I keep trying.

I think of those for whom communication is not easy. How do they get the help they desperately need?

When I get better I want to write about that .

We can’t ignore the people who literally cannot help themselves.

I will survive because I am strong . But not everyone has my resilience and self-care skills.

I feel sad knowing those people are suffering silently like I am, but with no end in sight .

“God helps those who help themselves” is NOT in the Bible !

Some people have never had the ability or freedom to express their needs. We have to make sure those people are cared for.

I’ve learned what it feels like to have people ignore me who I thought would take care of me. They just assume I will ask for what I want.

When someone is weak and can’t think straight, they don’t know what they want or need! You have to be pro-active for them, think for them, take care of them, pay attention to them.

I know God is always teaching me things through every experience he allows. This one has been very interesting inside my mind. My body, not so fun.

FYI I’m not totally on my own . I’ve had some help. Thank you to all those who have offered and helped ! Especially my husband.

Thanks in advance for the prayers.