Two stars. Last week I was asked to name something fun I did this summer and I couldn’t think of a single thing. This morning I was reflecting on that and trying to remember what happened over the past few months. I finally remembered one fun thing: Vacation Bible School. I truly enjoyed spending time with the kids .

But other than that, it’s been a tough summer. My mom was tentatively diagnosed with ALS, which could turn out to be wrong, but even the possibility created much emotional turmoil and attempts to deal with what might happen next. My adult children also had a lot going on in their lives that caused me to worry and fret. The heat has been a serious issue for my husband who works in an un-air-conditioned shop. My ability and desire to spend much time outside disappeared so I was in the house most of the time. We didn’t take any trips because of the heat and because my husband’s knee is too painful these days.

All in all, it just wasn’t a fun summer . However, it occurred to me while mentally reviewing these past months that I have a lot to be thankful for. First , despite the frequent close proximity, my husband and I enjoyed our time together. We are adjusting to the new almost-empty nest. Even though we miss them, we’re glad that our sons are independent and finding their way in life.

Second, we went to church regularly this summer which hasn’t always happened. I spent more time praying and studying and pondering the things of God than ever.

Third, my mom’s health problems have brought us closer together. It’s hard to see her struggle but I’m thankful that I am nearby and can help her with things. I’m in a new position now where I am the strong one after a lifetime of relying upon her. It’s not what either of us would have chosen, but it’s a good thing. I realized that I had to step up my game for her.

God has used these past few months to draw me closer to him while gently breaking me. It hasn’t been easy to admit my own weaknesses and faults, but he is so full of mercy and grace! He has repeatedly shown me that I can ask forgiveness and he will give it. He has demonstrated his faithfulness and power many times in my relationships , my own life, and by changing my heart by tearing down the self-protective walls.

I think my heart has been crushed and broken enough for now, though. I am ready for a fun Fall. I’m excited to be teaching a childrens class in Bible study, volunteering at the school again in the reading program, and hopefully enjoying some cooler weather soon, though there’s no telling when that will be. I’m ready to get some good news from my mom’s doctors. I’m also hoping my husband will get some relief from his knee pain from a gel shot he has scheduled next month.

How about you? What’s something fun you did this summer? Or was it a tough one? Was God taking you through a valley ?