This is so good, I had to share. I have a similar past except for the self-harming. I was self-destructive in other way. But I had the post-partum depression that made me feel like a zombie and I also had panic attacks. Running has made a huge improvement. I truly believe God gave me running as a gift.
This blog post has been rolling around in my head for some time now. In light of the recent celebrity suicides, I think it’s time I write it. My own family doesn’t even know much of what I am about to say, so this is extremely hard and I am going to make myself extremely vulnerable here. I know that depression still has a stigma, and an even greater one within the church. I remember as a child hearing that suicide was an unforgivable sin because once you did it, you couldn’t ask for forgiveness. What a thought to go through a young persons head, but even at age 8, I could understand why someone would take their own life. It did scare me though that you wouldn’t go to heaven if you did kill yourself.
My childhood was probably pretty typical for someone growing up in the 70’s- early…
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